My view of the world

I’m tired Boss, dog tired.

To borrow a line from John Coffey. (Like the drink, only spelled different)

I’m tired of always being on.

I’m tired of always being on my best behaviour.

I’m tired of always censoring and filtering.

I’m tired of always being second best.

I’m tired of feeling third rate.

I’m tired of the constant criticism.

I’m tired of the piling on.

I’m tired of the egos and attitudes.

I’m tired of feeling left out.

I’m tired of struggling.

I’m tired of fighting.

I’m tired of spending every day trying to prove my worth.

I’m tired of the insignificance.

I’m tired of feeling like I don’t belong.

I’m tired of the same debates and reasoning.

I’m tired of the excuses.

I’m tired of the apologies.

I’m tired of being in over my head.

I’m tired of digging.

I’m tired of constantly convincing myself.

I’m tired of the misunderstandings.

I’m tired of the confusion.

I’m tired of feeling like a failure.

I’m tired of not having any offline friends.

I’m tired of pretend friends.

I’m tired emotionally.

I’m tired physically.

I’m tired psychologically.

I’ve spent my entire life fighting for every inch.

I’m tired.

I’ve been knocked down over and over.

I’m tired.

I’ve always been close but never quite enough.

I’m tired.

Nothing in life has ever been easy.

I’m tired.

I’m ready to sink into obscurity and anonymity again.

They say a change is as good as a rest. I need a change.

I need to go collect some small wins.

I need to build back up my confidence.

I need to refocus.

I need to recharge.

I need to find who I am and where I belong.

I need to step back, step away.

I need to make up for some shortcomings.

I need to do some remembering.

I need to do some forgetting.

I’ve accomplished some great things recently.

I’ve also accomplished some great failures.

I’ll be back. Hopefully stronger, better, smarter, and more prepared.

Until then. Be good to each other. Live big lives. Dream big dreams.

Me?

I’m tired boss, dog tired.